I am now almost 7 months postpartum. Last night I was down in the basement doing laundry and saw the scale down there in the corner. I made the mistake of getting on the darn thing.
WHAT? Still 10 pounds heavier than I was before I got pregnant. I know that this is not a huge deal, but I was annoyed. I've kept 10 pounds from each pregnancy I've had so I'm 20 pounds heavier than I used to be. I know, boo hoo to you. I'm not saying I'm fat, but I had thought I was looking okay. I definitely thought my weight was gone, just redistributed.
Then this morning I grabbed a pair of jeans that I've worn several times since having my baby. The ugly truth set in.....I could hardly get the snap done. I did manage to lock it into place and when I stood looking in my full length mirror I shuddered. I had muffin top.
Muffin Top: taken from Urban dictionary.com:
When a woman wears a pair of tight jeans that makes her flab spill out over the waistband, just like the top of a muffin sits over the edge of the paper case.
Crap, crap, crap. It really upset me.
I can't complain to my family. I'm what you'd call "petite" or "small framed". Okay, so I'm delicate. That does not mean I can't have some fat on me. My sister struggles with her weight and if I even so much mention that I'd like to firm up or tone up, she gets defensive and yells at me because "you're so small". Look, clothes can hide a lot. That's all I'm saying.
Even now, I'm sitting here at the desk with my button undone on the jeans because it was digging into my post c-section pooch.
Enough is enough. I went to Walmart with el nino to get some stuff. We all know I'm a die-hard Pepsi drinker. I got lemonade mix instead to drink. Okay, i did end up getting Pepsi too. I figured I'd wean myself off. I only have 2 a day, but now i'm going for one a day. Baby steps, baby steps.
My friend from high school also is a coach on Team Beachbody. She's been looking for a new fitness group and I think I'm going to take the plunge and try it. Maybe with someone checking in on me, I'll be more faithful to exercise routines.
Crap, I just realized that the lemonade mix calls for sugar to be added. That's not going to be helpful is it? Maybe I should just stick with Pepsi. Wow.....Something tells me this new dedication to fitness may not last long!